To myself🍁

I had a nascent urge today to talk to myself. As they say positive self talk is necessary to keep you standing, I thought I should better sit with myself for a while. It’s been a long time that I have filled myself with my love.

Dear love,

You ever realise, that you keep pouring and pouring yourself out to the world that’s so negligent and to people that are so renegade and benighted. Why? Ever thought what would become of you if you continue to do that without renewing the source. True, we are all an abundant source of love, but we’re not sunlight. On a cloudy and foggy day, even the sun is not able to provide warmth and shower it’s love. Then how do you think you can? No matter how much you try, you can move heaven and earth, but even then you will not be able to please or care for everyone. Understand this and don’t beat yourself up for not conforming to people’s views or for not being able to concur with the majority. Cut yourself some slack. You’ll be just fine. Take care of yourself before you extend it to others.

Second thing I wanted to talk about was your place in this world. The world looks at a woman differently after her 20th. You are celebrating 24th today. It’s just the start. The life that you’ve seen, the experiences that you’ve had, it’s just the tip of the iceberg. Don’t let those age old opinions of people deter you from marching on. You might feel that you’re late, but as I said, this phase is all about ascendancy. Ascendancy of your self over others. Keep up your faith, keep believing and keep moving on.

And lastly, you know that “youth is lonelier than old age”. You might have people who love you to the core, you might have people who can pledge their life for you and yet you might feel alone at times. You might feel that you don’t fit in. And you might feel that nobody understands you and that nobody may ever will. But these are all clouds of darkness covering your head. Scour the haze and you’ll find all those pretty faces and love filled eyes of the ones for whom you are one true love. And even if you can’t see those faces the azure sky will reflect back your face amongst the clouds. Believe people when they say they love you, have courage to accept it but at the same time, also believe that you’ll be just fine even if they don’t exist. And when you can’t talk to anybody, you can come to me. I’ll always be there, beating inside you, dancing and singing for you, living for you.

Until then.

I love you.

Your Heart

self-love self talk

Last modified: September 2, 2021