And on some days I find everything reminding me of you. I find you in everything I see and everywhere I go and somehow it feels surreal. Like one moment you’re in my head. At other in front of me. My imagination running wild and my conscious going haywire. I imagine us trekking to a hilltop just to lay down in those yellow meadows of dandelions that speak volumes of my warmth for you and sings the melody of my laughter, my happiness when you’re around. The wind dances through your hair spreading your fragrance in the air around us. We lay there talking and smiling till the day kisses the night in the horizon and all the yellow around us is illuminated by the sparkle of the moon, so much so it looks like a field of stars. We wait till the night returns the kiss behind the veil of red-green and blue-yellow. I imagine us walking through the streets of Jaipur, me holding your elbow just the way you like it. The pink on the walls around us shout of my affection for you. They’re symbolic of the harmony and peace of my mind that you bring along with you. I imagine us sitting by Sukhna under the big old tree, quietly, reading each other’s silence, hoping that our babylove would outlive it someday. We stay there till the sun paints the sky ornage and red. And suddenly I snap out of it, as if I’ve just woken up from a dream, and the irony of this dream makes me smile and I snuggle closely inside my blanket thinking of you.
And somehow I settle to like this even though it makes me miss you a little more. This very moment that I know isn’t real. This moment in which you’re omnipresent and somehow I don’t want this moment to leave me. I just want to be in this moment, with you, for as long as we can be, for as long as this moment can stay. This moment I know I am hallucinating but it has got you in it and that is all I want right now. To have you beside me.
Last modified: June 13, 2020
