This place I know, which exist in a distant corner in my subconscious. I was sitting idle when my thoughts came running to me like little children and caught me by my hand and lead me in through the hidden doors of my mind, the ways to which I had locked and forgotten.
Soon I was diving deeper into my mind when I found it in front of me. I froze at the sight of it; colossal and bleak and exanimate. A gush of cold air rushed to caress my face making me realise the lifelessness and coldness of the place. A vast desert, seemed like miles in each direction. One could easily get lost and perish in that vastness. I looked around only to spot no life for as far as my eyes could see. I hated the first signals of familiarity the place was sending in my direction. The place gave me goosebumps, it scared me to death to look at it’s ripped and cracked crust with wide and gaping fault lines running everywhere like veins. I wanted to leave but the children from my thoughts had left and I was left alone in that dead place. My feet were stuck in one of those faults and I could see no way back.I wondered, how did I end up here? Why would they bring me here? I certainly do not belong here. And then I see it, your spirit lurking in that vastness. And I see it all coming back to me like a tsunami wave. The force of it threw me to the ground, nearer to those gaping faults, nearer to the darkness, nearer to my demons. I look around, more closely this time. It’s the same place where I buried your memories, my demons. How lifeless it looks now? Like a graveyard of what we had. Hard to believe this is the same meadow that it was a few years ago. Thriving and spirited and full of the joys of spring originating from our love. And even though, now this place looks spooky and send chills down my spine, it’s funny to think why it feels like home. It’s funny to think of this place as home. This place with dearth of life and energy is where I belonged once and a part of me always will. It is this lost part that calls me every now and then and I always find myself running in the direction of these calls only to fight the same demons I thought I had won, once again.
Last modified: August 5, 2020
